Wow, my summer is practically over.  Next week I have to leave for Wichita State University for a leadership conference.  It wouldn't be so bad if I didn't have to perform a couple of my songs.  It will be just me and my acoustic...on the stage...in front of everyone!!!!  I am so nervous.  I don't function well under stress thus I am going to make a complete fool of myself.  The theory hasn't failed me yet...unfortunately .  After that, I get to rest for a few days and then head off to Crowder College for Upward Bound/TRIO to stay in their dorms for 5-6 weeks.  They pay for everything: trips(this year to Washington D.C), food, hotels, heck...they even pay me!  What am I complaining about?!

Well, I gotta cut this short because I have a date to attend ...or...well...a date to cancel.  I don't even know who this person is.  You see, my recent relationship from hell lasted nearly three years and ended about a year ago.  Since then, I have been bitter and single.  My friends keep trying to hook me up, but nothing has been even close to being successful.  They say its because I have trust issues brought on by my past relationships, but I say its because they are doing a piss poor job at finding people for me to date.  Take the last person they tried hooking me up with, for example;  He had recently got out of prison for stabbing a guy, is going to rehab for meth, he's a gang leader, and he's also a part-owner of a strip club!   I am not one to judge people, but when his first words to me were..."I'd tap that ass," I could tell it wasn't going to work.    I have lost all patience and have decided to give up and let whomever I'm suppose to be with come to me.  I'm sure we will find each other eventually.  If not, then, I'm screwed....and not in the good way

Well folks, I'm sure youre getting tired of reading about my gripes and complaints.  I promise I will have something more pleasant to chat about in my next journal after I get through with my relaxing vacation.

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